Seeking

I kept wandering, looking around
Something that would ease my pain
Seeking

I didn’t know what to look for
or to recognise it
Emptiness

I sought alone,
people exagerated madness
Fear

I sought freedom,
away from chains and boundations
Suffocation

I sought release
a burden of expectations on my shoulder
Chained

And yet I couldn’t see
it was fear ruling me
Apprehension

Looking over my mistakes
Blaming all others
I expected some magic
To pull me out of chaos!

Lost Happiness

I reached home to silence

Unusual calm, peace

I wondered,

Howcome there’s no noise;

No mischief being played

I searched the garden,

The whole house

And everything empty

Worried, I wonder

When was the last she remained in

Never quite at a place

I find her in bed

Temperature, discomfort

And there goes my heart

To hear her chirp again

Helpless!

Fondling her, caressing

Praying silently under my breath

Reminding myself, recalling

His mercy, His wisdom

I tell her how

He purifies us by pain

Tests the pious

With trials

Yet, I was speechless

When in her innocence, she asked

“What sins would He write off me

And why this trial?”

My helplessness couldn’t be more profound

Lost!

I remember a time
When the prospectus of certain people
Got me blabbering about stuff
Random, vague and sometimes thoughtful
Now even with some good listeners around
I rarely speak up
Somewhere I lost myself.

Within

Seeking help and crying foul
I kept blaming for my turmoil
And yet, when I could see
I didn’t bother to correct me

I cried pain, sorrow, grief
it all just doesn’t fit in
But I didn’t bother to rectify
thing I found when I looked inside

I cried hopeless, seeking
as if they had all, I none
and yet, when I looked within
didn’t find a thing lacking

I victimised myself for sympathy, maybe
some care, attention
and yet, at the end of the day
besides me was alone