Half a year I couldn’t talk to you…
I dread a conversation now that I can.
I got no answer for how I am
Or have been all this while.
I am reduced to be a memory
No one knows I still exist
I have no words anymore
I falter at your questions
Grope around to find words
But all is dark and I find none
I run away!
Sometimes I want to hold your hand and say,
“Don’t go yet. I still need you around. Be. Maybe just for a little more time. I know there’s nothing more to talk. Savor this silence with me. Let us just be.”
But leaving, you take away your hand abruptly. A strange anger in you. Your eyes rebuke me in a certain manner.
Somehow I know I shouldn’t say anything anymore.
Ek shaam ke sarhane pe
Ek khwahish rakh kar bhool gayee
Thandi si ek shaam ka aalam
Ek tum, ek mai, ek tanhayee
The times when you so want to curl up and cry, to hide somewhere, run away from everyone….
The times when you feel like giving up, like everything is worthless, like nothing is working in the way desired…
The times when the world comes crashing, when the skies fall, when the earth bursts open, when even the closest ones leave your side…
The times when you lose the purpose of living, when nothing makes a sense, when even the next breath is a burden…
Don’t give up! Look up into your eyes, re-ignite that fire, visualize your purpose. There’s an answer to everything…