Tormentor

I sit with him, Ah! the pleasure
His eyes, the way he smiles
chiseled biceps!

He asks, I speak
The trauma at my heart
What is it that keeps poking me

I speak of red,
The spilled colour
The bundle of joy dead on a street

I speak of a bed
Devoid of rest
Haunted by nightmares

I speak of rooms;
Painful, brutal sounds
Electrocution

I speak, unaware
the words incoherent
the ache, constant….

My tormentor, moved to tears
I, unphased, numb
unaffected

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Killed

Feeling full, impatient
Reasons unknown, concealed
Regrets, flashbacks
PTSD!
Sometimes a flood,
Others just a dull ache
In clutches, claws unknown
Surrendered, lost
All ambers turned to soot
We killed ourselves inside!